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All he needs is a best friend...

not a girlfriend.

But i want to be his girlfriend. This hurts so bad.
Why can't he make up his mind and stop hurting us?

I tried last night...telling him that i'm just his best friend.
But he didn't like that...so i'm still is girlfriend......but i know he doesnt like that either.
He's not telling me what he wants. He needs to tell me what he's feeling, what he wants me to do, what he wants himself to do.

His plan was to move on and come back to me when he's ready......but how can you do that if we're just gonna stay best friends the entire time? It's giving me false hope everyday that i would see you. Kind of like "Is today the day he'll come back to me?...no?....okay. I guess we'll go see a movie as friends"

March 21 is 3 years we'll be together. It would have been.....it still could be.

I never have any negative thoughts about our relationship.
Sure, i want some space too, but i get that space when i'm at work...away from him. 6 days a week. I only see him for a few hours a day...2 days a week now.
This isnt healthy.
Baby, please....i want u to miss me so bad that you come visit me at work or come surprise me at home. You go out with our friends until the early morning almost all the time.
Why can't you do that with me? When i have a day off....just stay with me all day.

You always say how it's always about me. Well lately it's all been about you. How you're the one who wants to be friends and come back to me when YOU feel like it.
Or when you're the one who wants to go home early because you're tired.
I NEVER SEE YOU!!! Don't just go home! you're tired, but i'm lonely.

You have your friends, i have my coworkers. Don't try and find me a best friend until we fix our relationship first. just listen to me.


If you leave, i cant come back...just because you're going to do it all over again. Like you did 3 times before. It's not always about me.